Little me

In the last couple weeks, I felt stressed about my future plan, relationships, health of loved one, writing articles...etc. Although each issue was not a big deal, they could add up to a profound effect to me. I tried to put them aside but they kept coming to my mind, and then I would think and think, worry and worry about them. Perhaps I am a worry expert, so finally I know what I should do. I prayed to God to take away my burden and lift them to him. In the past, I seldom did it, I would take it back to myself. Now, I have Elisha, and I need to set an example to her that we can rely on God and be worry free.
Thanks God that He listened to my prayer, and things seemed to be straighten out. I realized that I am too little to solve everything, but I have God who is too big to solve nothing.

Sorry, my friend

Yesterday I talked to a friend whom I thought we had something between us which made us have a thorn in our hearts for a long time. I was glad that we could frankly reveal our feelings about each other. From the conversation I surprisingly found that I had hurt her quite deeply in the past although I had no intention to hurt her at all. She told me that not only her, but some people had also be hurt by my attitude. In our sharing, I had an opportunity to look into the 'old me' and I must admit that I could possibly be seen as an inconsiderate, self-centred, and arrogant person which made people uncomfortable or hurt. I am regret that I don't have a chance to meet everyone whom I have hurt to apologize to.
I know that I am not a perfect person and I can't please everybody, but if by any chance you have read this blog and I have ever hurt you, please accept my sincere apology! I really hope that my fault won't stop us from developing a real friendship!

My mind is mixed up

My mind is mixed up! I have many things to say but don't know how to start. I guess it is because my mind is wandered around and around. Too many things in my mind and I want to deal with them all in once. Although I know it's impossible, I can't help it! I am quite mentally tired, but thanks God He talks to me through the Bible and so I can follow His word.
I was struggle with my relationship with a friend, and praise the Lord that He gave me courage to write to this friend and I got her response. Now, thing is settle and hopefully we can build a better relationship afterwards.
I kept thinking about my career plan. Should I get back to work after maternity leave? Should I be a full time mom? Will I miss Elisha's significant stages if I go back to work? Will I regret I give up my career to raise her? Can I balance my life if I work part time? Will it be too risky financially if only one breadwinner in family? Will I lose my productivity if I don't work? Will Elisha get good care if I work? What if I have a second baby?
I don't want to worry because I suppose to rely on God and let Him take care of me! I don't want to worry because I need to set an example to Elisha that we lay our burden to God and we are worry free.
Thanks God that I can share my worry to my friends and their comfort really warm my heart.