Bittersweet

In this couple weeks, I have done some treatment. Through the treatment, I realized that I have a lot of hurt and pain since I was a baby. I have suppressed my anger, disappointment, grieve for a long time. I have learned to act strong, tough, independent to protect myself. However, the inner me is weak, dependent, insecure and I don't want people to see this side of me because this revelation makes me scared and vulnerable. I don't want to accept this side of me too because I am afraid that my true feelings will come out and I can't handle them. Thanks God that he led me to open my heart and see what inside me. Yes I saw the scars and I sensed the bitterness. I cried and talked about the feelings. After that I was relieved. Yes the scars are still there but they are being healed. I am gaining the strength to take off the mask which used to protect myself and show the real me in front of people.