Why

Why did you let it happen? Why did it happen so suddenly? Why did it happen on a day supposedly to be celebrated? Why him? He's humorous, generous, sophisicated, caring, and handy! He is my dearest uncle! I just talked to him on phone 2 weeks ago, and we planned to meet in the near future! But why? Why did you take him away? If you can take him away from me, you can take anyone I love away from me! I am fear! You know I am fear but why did you still do it to me?!
I can't accept he passed away yesterday! I can't accept he's gone that way! I can't accept.....
Lord! Mercy me! Only you can give me the answer, wipe me tears and heal me! Please comfort my uncle's family, especially his wife.
I know he's gone but he's always in my heart! My dearest Gordon uncle!!

Drama

In these few days, I was so worried that my coughing would intervine my last night drama performance. I had done all I could do to cure my 'cold' but still couldn't clear it. No much coughing in yesterday morning until 10 mins before the show. I had a non-stop coughing and I didn't know what to do. Fortunately, an experience drama performer helped me to break through it. Thanks God that I had no coughing on stage. Wonderful! Audience had a very good feedback on the drama! Praise the Lord!

Risk

As I am quite sick and Elisha is at the recovery stage from sickness, I try to keep distance from her. However, she will cling to me or come to me when she sees me. She will be upset if I do not pick her up or being close to her. Well, now she will come to you and kiss you if she wants. How can I resist such a sweet time? And how can I not return a big kiss to her? So like what Denis said was how can we avoid passing gems among us? Well, honestly I will rather take a risk than give up those precious moment with my little one!

Cough, Nasal Congestion and Fever

I haven't had such a long coughing period in my entire life! When my throat is triggered, I can't stop coughing. Sometimes it upsets my stomach too! The mucus make me go to washroom and spilt it so frequently that I believe the hydro bill of this month will be very high!! The coughing makes me embrassed in front of my clients and collegue as I look like coughing so hard. In fact, it's hard! The coughing makes me have a sore throat which gives me quite a hard time to swallow.
Of course, coughing comes with nasal congestion. Nasal congestion makes me hard to breath by nose when sleeping. So I have to breath by my mouth which triggers my throat and makes me cough non-stop. If I try to breath by nose, I will breathless and die! The nasal congestion causes me sound 'sexy' which is not a good way to talk or sing. So when I am recording my radio program, I am afraid the audience won't recognize me! When I sing in choir, I have to compensate in some way to make me hit the right note. Actually, the cough and nasal congestion stop me from choir practice and perform, and most serious thing is stop me from drama practice which will be played in 2 days.
Cough and nasal congestion get along with fever, 3 of them together are very powerful that I have to surrender! Call sick leave , call sister-in-law to drive me to see a doctor, call help from mother-in-law to take care of Elisha, call help from Denis to comfort me from getting so sick!
I haven't cried for being sick for long time, but this time it gets me. I cry because I have lot of things need to be done, and I have lost from getting sick. I am frustrated and helpless and I want to get well soon so desperately that I go to see different doctors. Well, I guess all of them have contributed to my progress of recovery.
Still, I am coughing and having a running nose. I know nothing I can do, but pray that God will look after me, and trust him that he will finish his work thru his will.

Rest

I have been sick for 2 weeks. I believed that if I had more rest, I would have recovered earlier. Although I was tired, I couldn't sleep well. Cough, running nose, nasal congestion... all disturbed my sleep. Fortunately, my mother-in-law came back to Vancouver 2 weeks ago, so she could take care of the housechores and Elisha, and I could get rest if I was willing to. Sometimes I felt bad to rest as there were many things I had to manage. Yesterday I happened to have a whole day off, so I planned to do translation work at home. My mind ran so slowly that I had to take a break after 1 hour work (did not translated much in an hour!). After lunch time, I was thinking if I continued the work or got a nap. Finally, I chose to sleep and I got a really good nap! God knows what I need (sleep) and He provides it to me (free time). It's my choice to take it or leave it. Yes, God always provides my needs to me and it's always up to me to take it or not!