Go thru the process

Recently I want to write the blog but it's like too much stuff to say, too little heart to write. I don't know what is happening to me as I always feel tired, physical pain and less enthusiasm. My mind works slower, my memory gets worse, my response is slow, my verbal expression gets stuck ... I wish I know why I'm like this! Well, it could be mentally fatique, it could be blocked emotion coming to surface, it could be lack of exercise, it could be burnt out, it could be all of the above. Tonight when I prayed, I realized that I am too focus on the problems and relying on myself to find the solution! I forget to look upon God and let him help me! When I leave my burden to him, I feel better. I don't know how long I need to go thru this process, but I believe God wants me to learn something from it.