Friendship

In this few days, I am bothered by a friend who seems to be not happy about me for few years, but I don't know what happened. I don't know why it becomes my concern, perhaps I don't feel comfortable when I meet her. I feel odd and ignored by her which hurt me much. Yes, it hurts and I have tried to bury my hurt for a long time. Although I want to find out if it's my fault which make this friendship deteriorated, I am afraid to ask. I don't know how she reacts if I ask, don't know how I react to her answer. I think I am still in a defensive mode and I tell myself that if she treasures me, she will let me know what happened between us. If she thinks I don't deserve to be her friend, that's her choice, and I need to respect her.

Sometimes I feel bad about not having a lot of friends, maybe I am not as sociable as I appear. However, I do have friends who trust me and share their inner feelings and thoughts to me. I would like to say thank you to them as they make me feel I have a special place in their hearts which make me warm! I don't have a lot of close friends, but I am glad that I have enough of them who are willing to listen to me, support me, walk with me, and accept the real me. I would like to say thank you to them as they make me feel I am valuable to them!